Hey people! Well this is my first site. I've been meaning to get one and i finally got around in making it. Well the people
that know me probably know half the stuff on here bout me, but there's still a lot more to find out and to see. Well STOP!
reading this and look at the rest of my site, this thing isn't the only thing on here you know!j/k LOL!
Why's My life have to be all bout tradegy!!!
Why do i alwayz have to suffer!!! Why do i alwayz end up in pain!!! Why?!?! Am i that horrible that i have to go thru all
this?! Please tell me!?
Why is everyhting bad happening at once. First my dad and now my best friend,
Eric....why is god taking everyone i luv and care about one by one from me.....
OMG!! Eric...one of my bestes friends
ever!...died on december 15, 2004!! He killed himself!! And its all my fault!! If I wasn't acting stupid and picked up the
phone then maybe he would still be here today!! And we would be goin ice skating and shopping for christmas and doin all the
stuff we planned to do over break!!!OMG I HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW!!! I miss Eric soo fuckin much!!! I can't go one night without
crying my eyes out!!.....and waking up in the middle of the night starring at his picture and remembering all the times
we stayed up all night just talking bout everything...and realizing that we can never do that ever again!....No1 will ever
know the pain i'm going thru right now...no1 will ever kno how it feels to lie awake all night crying...or to try to hide
my tearz from everyone at skool cuz everything reminds me of him...or to try u'r hardest to keep everything in so that every1
thinks ur ok and that nothing is wrong...or to go to the bathroom every period in skool and cry ur eyes out and then go back
to class with a big fake smile on...or to alwayz be distracted and thinking bout him all the time...no1 will ever kno how
that feels!!!
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